"What I've come to know is that in life, it's not always the questions we ask, but rather our ability to hear the answers that truly enriches our understanding. Never, never stop learning." Lester Holt  


    Recreate.  Release. Refine.

Recreate. Release. Refine.

This innocent country set you down in a ghetto in which, in fact, it intended that you should perish. The limits of your ambition were, thus, expected to be set forever. You were born in a society that which spelled out with brutal clarity, and in as many ways as possible that you were a worthless human being. You were expected to make peace with mediocrity … you have and many us have defeated this intention. -James Baldwin

James Baldwin wrote this letter in 1962 and 52 years later it brought me to tears. His words eloquently capture how I feel about the injustice in our world. I grew up in a single-parent household with five siblings. I was considered an "at-risk" youth. Despite where I come from or the amount of privilege I’m afforded in this world, I will always choose to rise above it. 

As the body of Christ, we must act with a sense ofurgency. God speaks with the expectation of being obeyed. When the Lord instructs us to do something he will equip us with the resources to complete it. No low standard or statistic from this fallen world can be used as an excuse to not live the abundant life that God has promised us. 

Right now, I'm in a transitional season. At first, I thought the lord was calling me to go higher. I thought he wanted to give me a new position or take me to a new level.I  I couldn't really put words around how I was feeling about the shift taking place. 

My pastor John Hannah calls this year the "Year of Movement." God has physically allowed me to move this year with amazing travel opportunities but I forgot about the spiritual movement that must take place in order for my growth. 

With prayer, I realized the Lord was not taking me higher. He was actually taking me deeper. Deeper into his word. Deeper into communication. Deeper into intimacy with him. Deeper into his love. 

Going deeper into my relationship with Jesus meant that I would no longer just know the word, but that I would actively apply it to my life. 

This past month was filled with several heartbreaks and trails. One of them being my grandmother passing away. Jesus is recreating me into his perfect image. The transition that was taking place in me was from the milk of the word to solid food. When we face trials as believers we should look at them as opportunities for spiritual growth. 

Like newborn babies , crave pure and spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation now that you have tasted that the lord is good. - 1 Peter 2:2

At some point in our walk with God, we must be hungry for the meat of the word. We must have a desire to learn more and to live our lives to reflect his love. 

What good is my faith that when trials come I don’t apply it? 

My desire is to be a laborer of the word of Christ. I had to learn how to be anchored in the love of Christ no matter what was thrown my way. The Lord stripped me this past month form everything that made me comfortable.

Through the trials, I prayed the Lord would give me the vision to see things the way he does. If we focus on the Cross our problems won't be magnified, but the Love of Jesus will be.

 I also asked the Lord to show me my heart. I asked him to reveal to my ways and to uproot anything in me that was not like him. 

Boy oh boy...did I get a surprise. 

The Lord showed me things about myself that I didn't even know were there. He showed me areas of my heart that were selfish and controlling. He showed me where insecurities and jealousy have taken root.  He showed me who I really was and not who I pretend to be. 

My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in” - Proverbs 3

Jesus checked me so he could recreate me. I am so willing to allow the lord to recreate me because of his word. The word of the Lord has transformative power, and if we just open up and say, "Lord Have Your Way" he can and will do amazing things.

As believers we must have unwavering faith. With the meat of word comes maturity in our walk. A level that I was afraid to enter. I was afraid of this growth. I was afraid to go deeper. I was afraid of my light.

Our deepest fear is not that we inadequate our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. -Marianne Williamson

I was afraid of my growth for 3 reasons:

1. I feared what other people would say
2. I feared my own light and authority
3. I feared that I would outgrow people I love

The truth is I am growing and evolving. With every decision and mistake God is molding me into women of God.  I am blooming with no apology.  Everyone cannot go into new seasons with you. That is okay. We are all at different speeds. God's Speed.  But despite the separation that needs to take place in order to grow, we have to remember to love at all times. I welcome new and old friends back into my life without hesitation because my worth is anchored in the love of Christ, and not humans. 

Allow the lord to Recreate you.  When it come to recreating yourself these words have been on my heart and helped me in this new season of life. 

Recreate. Release. Refine. 

Recreate- Jesus wants to change your heart. He wants to transform you by his loving word. We have to be open to allowing the lord recreate us. I had to learn how to embrace new seasons and it all started with trusting in God. 

Release - Release everything that is holding you back. We can have as much of God that we have faith to receive. Release fears, negative thoughts, the past hurts unto God. Get rid of anything that is putting up a wall in your heart. If it is not directing you towards the love of God then it has to go. 

Refine-  The fire and suffering we deal with purpose are to mature us in Christ. Instead of passively letting life attacks hit you fight back with the word of God. Refuse to just go through trials instead GROW through them. 


  Running in Place

Running in Place