"What I've come to know is that in life, it's not always the questions we ask, but rather our ability to hear the answers that truly enriches our understanding. Never, never stop learning." Lester Holt  




Do not run form the absence of problems in your life. That is an unrealistic goal, since in this world you will have trouble. You have an eternity of problem-free living reserved for you in heaven. Rejoice in that inheritance, which no one can take away from you, but do not seek your heaven on earth.

Above is an expert from my Jesus Calling devotional. I have been faced with tough times these past few weeks. How quickly, life can flip around. Oh, but how consistant God is. It would be a lie if I told you I was on fire for God 24/7. When heartbreaking and unthinkable situations happened to my family and friends God was the last person I turned to. 

How do you handle you problems? I ran to my bed, social-media and even tried to watch sermons on youtube to make since of why life had just took a turned for the worse. 

For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.-Isaiah 41:13

When the going gets tough the praises must go up.

Even when I ignore God he shows me that he will never forsake me.  Before class one morning, I did not have my prayer time. I didn't “feel” like it. God met me where I was. On a break, during my class, my friend just took out her Jesus Calling book and began to read to me. She had no idea what was in my heart but God used her to minister to me. He meets me in the middle of my rebellious heart. 

I learned that when problems come my way that my nature is to retreat. Isolation is not the answer. My carnal mind tells me that I am selfish and that nobody wants to fight with me through my hard times. I will ignore phone calls and text and shut off the world for no benefit at all. 

If the Devil can convince me that I am unloved than he can get me out of the Will of God for my life he has completed his purpose.

The thief does not come except to steal,kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly, -John 10:10

 Being out of the Will of God is not where I am destined to be. I was holding on to a mustered seed of faith with everything that I had. I had to learn how to ask. I have to tell people that I am not okay and that I need prayer. 

My source is not found in isolation but in the power of God. I have to run to where the power of God is.  I never ask people for prayer because I belittle my problems. That is a lie from the devil and we should never be afraid to ask for help in areas where we are weak.  We must renew our minds. This world will have you believing that it is an accomplishment to be Ms. Independent and unbothered. This is so far from the truth and word of God. 

I am bothered and I need help. We all need to admit this. We cannot grow if we don't allow ourselves to be vulnerable. I have to open up my heart and allow the Holy Spirit to teach me and to receive the prayers from the people God has placed in my life. 

God is so beautiful. When we have problems and difficulties in life he accompanies it with his peace. His peace and joy are what I fight for. I want the Joy of the lord to reign in my heart forever. 

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world - John 16:33
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.- John 14-27

 We cannot resist nor run from the problems in our life. Jesus understands our pain.  If the King of Kings and my savior dealt with: betrayal, temptation, death, abuse and much more than I can expect that in my lifetime I will have to deal with the same. 

Disclaimer: this is not to be confused with an abusive or unhealthy relationship. I encourage you to pray and seek the help you need to leave that environment. 

Remember the word that I said to you, A servant is no greater than his master. John 15:20

Jesus is a God of understanding. He knows what it is like to live on this earth and he can help us through our problems by covering us with his peace. My prayer is that in hard times we cling to the ounce of faith left and allow God's presence to magnify in our hearts. 

 In light of recent events,  I would like to use this platform to pay tribute to Marisa Smock. Marisa Smock passed away from asthma on May 6, 2015. 

Marisa was a part of my Youth to Youth family. Youth to Youth is an organization that has helped me grow throughout life. The people in this program planted seeds in my heart that laid the foundation for my growth and my Dream Big attitude.

Marisa, I believe that when the Lord welcomed you home he gave you a big hug and said “well done my good and faithful servant,” because you were light everywhere you went. 

My friend Kevin made this beautiful videothat captures the beautiful light and personality Marisa had. 


Please pray in agreement for the peace and comfort of the Smock Family. 

In lieu of flowers, please consider donating to Nationwide Children's Hospital Foundation<> Please designate funds to "other" and type "asthma program"; Tribute in memory of Marisa Smock or mail to P.O. Box 16810 Columbus, OH 43216 OR to the Hilliard Davidson Fund to complete the Strength and Conditioning Building or mail to HDVSCF c/o Roy Walker 2140 Atlas Street, Columbus, OH 43228 -referring student M. Smock

RIP Marisa Smock. 

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