Faith in Action
I was once afraid. I put all my value in men. I wanted to be everybody’s friend. I was confused. I was angry. I was selfish. Often times when I think about my past I remember all the negative things. I became determined to leave everything so I could gain all of Jesus.
I found myself in Chicago with no friends, heartbroken from a boy and the residue of old friendships sticking to my heart. I was drowning in the hurt from my dark past.
I also left another part of myself in the past…my joy and an adventurous spirit. I left behind the dreamer in me. I had to learn how to be transparent and dependent on God. In my season of transparency, I had to learn how to talk to Jesus and how to have conversations with him throughout the day. I learned the true joy comes from the Lord.
After giving my life to Jesus, he began to slowly build me back up. Our relationship grew daily, during this season of growth he began giving me visions. My love and passion for him grew even more. He became the center and the foundation of my life!
When I said “Yes” to Jesus my life got real uncomfortable real quick. This past summer I went to a conference. Pastor Cornelius Lindsey taught us that I should be unapologetic about my relationship with God. At that moment God gave me not only a revelation but also a vision. I had the vision to lead worship at Columbia College Chicago.
I wrestled back in forth in my spirit about what this meant months after the conference was over. I can’t sing, dance or play an instrument, so you understand my struggle with this vision. This is all I ever seen worship leaders do in the past. I didn't stop there. I kept seeking. Jesus began to reveal to me what he meant.
Around mid-October the Lord told me to “GO’ and I took action. Once I got the instructions to GO….I didn't wait. Fear knocked on the door of my heart.
It was the same old fear that almost stopped me from moving to Chicago.
The same old fear that kept me in that boy's bed for too long because I was afraid that nobody would ever want me.
The same old fear that told me not to pursue Broadcast Journalism.
The same old fear that told me not to start this blog.
Who do you obey?!?
In that moment of fear, I had to trust God. I had to believe that his plans are greater than my reputation. If I become known as the Jesus freak … that is fine with me. I had to learn how to live for Jesus and not for the opinions of others. People (even some Christians) didn’t understand what I meant when I would talk about the vision to plan a worship night at my school.
I go to Columbia College Chicago. Columbia is an art school in the heart of downtown Chicago. It is not the most comfortable environment to proclaim the name of Jesus in.
That’s okay, proclaim his name anyway.
This worship night was the first of its kind. I had no idea what Jesus would do or how people would react. All I had was a vision and a promise from my savior. I told Jesus that I would obey him. I didn't care if 2 or 200 people showed up.
The process of planning this event was all faith. Every step I took I prayed about. When something went wrong, I prayed about it. I prayed that God would soften my heart towards people. I prayed that I would be slow to anger. I prayed that God would send me a team of people who shared my passion for him. ( He connected me with a amazing people to help plan this event)
As the event got closer my prayers got bolder. Like the good father God is , he stayed true to his promise. My roller-coaster ride of emotions throughout the planning process did not change the promise that God gave me. He is constant!
...On March 5th, 2015 God blew my mind.
The event was a huge success! The second I opened the door my mind was blown-away at how many people were in line ready to worship Jesus. I cried all night … just thinking about how good God is! God is FAITHFUL!
As believers, we are called to be light in dark places. How are you being a light on your campus?
Here are the four things I’ve learned this season from stepping out on faith.
1. I’ve learned how to break-free from people bondage
2. I’ve learned how to walk in my authority.
3. I’ve learned how to trust
4. I’ve learned to Obey- God's instruction ... are not suggestions!
When people ask me: How did you do it? How did you book that artist? How did you get all those people?
I simply smile and say “Jesus did it!”
Here is a video from A Night of Worship...enjoy!